Hi, I’m Nicole. I’m a fiancé, a writer, blogger, photographer, baker, friend, mother of two (almost three!), and I’m also a addict. Yes, I’m a substance addict, but I’m also an addict to many other things that aren’t considered or made to be bad by society. For example fitness. I love to work out, sometimes to an excess. It really doesn’t matter what it is, the point is that, if it gives me any satisfaction or pleasure, then some is never enough. I won’t stop until I have it all or I’ve almost killed myself trying. As mentioned before, I’m pregnant with our third child. Hold the judgement. What this has brought me to realize is, there is not enough for pregnant addicts. And what I mean by that is, there’s not enough information. Not enough, resources, plans of action, guided, support, even with the Medically Assisted Treatment, it’s not enough. Women need help. It all becomes so overwhelming, it’s easy to see why many throw in the towel and continue using instead of going through the grueling and shameful process of reaching out for help. Just like most of you probably thought when you first read the part about me being a pregnant addict, disgust, anger, sadness, rage (am I getting close.) Those are the same thoughts that almost everyone has. Everyone that hasn’t gone through it, that is. This is why I want to bring more attention in a positive light to the dark unknowns of this side of it all. What it is that we go through, mentally, physically and emotionally. My end goal is to not have this baby born into the world full of pain and hurt, when I could have prevented every last bit of it. That’s my hope, whether or not I will achieve it, I’m not sure. I hope so. I pray every day that I will. But the truth of the matter is, I won’t know for sure until it happens. So I invite you on this life journey with me. Journey just sounds better than lesson. There will be times that I’m sure the world will be against me, more times in the beginning than not. It’s ok. There’s only one whose judgment I truly take to heart and consider in regard to my life. Thankfully, they are very forgiving in nature. If you decide you want to tag along for the ride, please do. All I ask is that the comments, where constructive criticism and opinions are appreciated, cruel or mean comments will not be. I hope you understand. This is a page about growing in a positive direction, and negativity is not conducive in any way, shape or form to that process. Thank you for stopping by, If you get nothing else from my page, I hope you at least get the message to be kind. Be respectful and most of all, be happy being you.